This one is a “one off” post….
I’ll never forget seeing Marin Mazzie sing “Back to Before” in “Ragtime” on Broadway back in 1998 at the, then, Ford Center.
Steve and I had been together about a year. I had only been officially “out” for a very few years. I was getting ready to turn 40…
And I saw my life flash before my eyes when she sang this song…
I saw Danville, I saw W&L and I saw who I was becoming and who I had been at other points in my life….
It was a “Broadway Moment” that one always hopes for where art comes home to you and you relate your life to the character’s and start to think…
The song may be about a woman’s journey as a woman and a wife, but I think it applies to anyone who makes changes from the way they were raised and the role they were raised to play…
I certainly came from a time when “we spoke in civilized voices” and some one else “made all my choices.” Or tried to…..
I was raised to, at least publicly, concentrate keeping things pretty and civil and to think that was much more important than being real or dealing with reality….
“Life was a road, so certain and straight and unbending. Our little road, with never a crossroad in sight…Women in white and sturdy young men at the oar.”
I can’t believe I ever believed that stuff now….but I was raised to do so and I did once.
But…I asked questions and didn’t accept things too easily…..
And now know “You can never go back to before.”
This isn’t the best quality video. It’s from a cruise performance. Unfortunately, I haven’t been able to find a video of the Broadway version. I’ve looked for a long time. I’m just thrilled to find this version of the singer and the song…
So, I’m posting it on “My Southern Gothic Life”.
Because I want to….
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